Deep Ravine (poem)

Tracks left behind by an unknown beast,
I follow them like a hunter on the trail.
These tracks lead somewhere new I tell myself,
touching the earth and smelling the leaves.

Much of it's trail is easy to spot,
this creature doesn't worry about being followed.
Perhaps another beast is it's pray,
being followed just as I follow you today.

The search quickens and the trail get's hot,
the beast that I'm tracking is just up ahead.
Running with anticipation and lust,
The chase makes me crazy and puts strange things in my head.

You were all I wanted,
now I'm not sure what to do,
everything I'd ever hoped would happen,
it was always supposed to happen with you.

A monkey swings from a tree,
I'm surprised and run off the trail.
Falling into a deep ravine and losing myself completely,
My mind rebuilds it's self while I redesign me.

Who am I today?
This isn't right being so different everyday.
I gentle tear rolls down my cheek and I talk to myself like I'm crazy,
I reply to myself out loud "maybe".

Forever passes while I regain my strength,
the days are long though I remember none of them.
Strange thoughts always passing through my mind,
Separating myself from me and direct the thoughts at him.

If it's not you I'm supposed to be with,
not you I'm to spend my days and nights holding tight,
growing old with until nothing remains but sandpaper and wax,
If not you,
then who?

Blogging on Nigeria... ha ha ha ha ha!!!

Totally awesome life indeed!!!! So I went to see Hellyeah and Machine Head last night. That show was pretty awesome. I'm not so sure I have a proper appreciation for Hellyeah as much as Machine Head. Thing that was really cool was Nonpoint, whom I know songs of and never knew who played them, was there as well. In fact! I got to talk to Elias the band's vocalist. He was just standing around and people kept taking pictures with him and what not. Then I walked over and was like, "So do you do this often?" He looked at me laughing and said, "no actually I'm just waiting for my burger. I'm starving." Conversation was short (there was more) but I figured he'd rather not be THAT bothered. Then I went and snapped a pic with my cell and waved by. But it was sooooo funny, before I asked him anything, this other guy was like, "Hey are you Man?" (he apparently goes by Man as a nickname or something). Anyways, he shrugs and goes, "nah!" The dude actually bought this and turned and walked away. I laughed so hard at that. Some people man...

Anyways, to continue, so I went out and bought cloths for my interview on Wednesday. I 'm planning on making that a good interview. But what's really cool about Best Buy, is I thought I had a ten dollar gift card for them from Christmas, and when I bought something there (av power cable for my camcorder) they told me I had $66 dollars left on my card. I was like huh? Apparently it was a $100 card, not ten. That made me so happy.

Now the best for last. So this chick starts messaging me on here right. She's acting so weird and calling me baby like we've been together for years. But she's "trapped" in Nigeria and needs someone to rescue her from the Hotel... wow, how weird does that sound? Anyways, story is straight forward, no holes. Just extra pieces if you ask me. She's saying they're holding her there in a hotel because she has to pay the bills (um... wouldn't they kick you out?). I don't know Nigerian Law, maybe that's how it's done. In any case, her Myspace looks just like spam scum... and she is quick with the wit, but if she's so witty then how'd she end up in Nigeria? The conversation isn't over yet, but it's bound to get more crazy and absurd. Nigerian's and their scams, lol. So easy to see through.

Intense (poem)

I am the word telling the action,
which creates the cause of the effect.

With passing judgment I,
commit to happen what should have been.

You being of sound body and mind,
react how it is that you do effecting me,
the cause of you.

No noun knew now,
just what I should call you...

Best Buy and VD

Alright! It worked. I went into Best Buy with a resume' and they actually looked at it. I have an interview with their new general manager on Wednesday next week. I figure now I should start focusing some more time to study my A+ certification again. Though they didn't have any open positions where I applied, they said they could always hire me on as a cashier and then integrate me into the Geek Squad (whom are apparently techs that mostly diagnose problems more often then solve them)...:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

More good news you ask? Can't be! That's right, PC Magazine just released a huge article on free apps available online. Anyone who knows me knows I love those the best. Oh it is so cool...

Some bad news... found out VD videos of Von Doom covering other songs is copyright infringement. In fact, them playing the songs is a form of CI. So what to do? Well, for one those videos are gone. If you knew how and you downloaded a copy of them, I'm officially informing you that uploading the video anywhere is CI and in doing so you are at risk of being fined. The only good thing is that neither I or Von Doom can be held accountable because we didn't know, and we can always ask/pay for permission to host the videos.

Some open thought, how I am right now.

So, we all have only moments to live. The point I've found now, is to stop focusing what I believe based on love. It's not there, but it is. It's like the icing on the cake, I have to first build a foundation. How I do that? I have no idea. All I know is I need to focus on me, show myself how to live for myself before I start thinking about how to live for someone else.

Plans, well those are simply crazy and out there. I believe I could be doing better if I lived with my mother. But at the same time I'm not sure that could work. So, avoiding that question, what else to change? Should be that I study often, take more time to just do something if there isn't really time the next day. Should I help others as much? Probably not.

Study? So, I need to study computers more, but not entirely just computers. Perhaps electronics, maybe I should check into an electrician internship. I know there's a term for it but I can't think of it right now. That would give me a good pay and introduce me to electricity and calculus at the same time. Another area I need to study again, math. I haven't even really vaguely been working with math since I started at Jan's. What a joke that job has become.

Money, I need to sell a few things that I no longer use, the dead camera for one. My unused Guild Wars account would be great to rid myself of. I also need a better job, again the electrician idea would cover me. Perhaps I should see what kind of demand there is for an electrician before I just sign up though. I think I will.

Technical notes:
If a device could control atomic particles, than it could reverse them. Power could come from anything, everything moving is exerting energy, that energy can be used to power such a device, and in reversing the direction in which an object is moving in turn would create an equal exertion of energy to continue powering the device until the desired point of origin was accomplished. Finding the mathematical equations to calculate the movement of objects at the atomic level could be tricky.

Eve of pin drop, sound of the world

Life pressing, it's a Jesus hairball.
Optical illusions transforming into microphones.
The world just wants to listen to music.

Creative lions, paint in his nose.
Prey turns on one another giving the audience a real show.
Can't stand to watch this anymore, reality is just to slow.

Chicken wings, taunt them with goat.
Fly's in my soup stir it for me but eat it I won't.
The walls are sticky here so spiders don't need ropes.

Catfish.
How does that fit into the works of all of this?
Is something swimming towards or without?

I cry, very slowly a fin comes out.
Stupid cat ate my fish and spat it out.
Can't remember the name I gave it anyhow.

Yak, a heard sound distant and loud.
This is where the Devil turns cold and borrows into the ground.
No one wants to know what goes on in my head, so don't hear me out.

Times keep a rolling, all the live long day

There's hope, I know there is. But it's not with me right now. Nope. I've found every bad thing that can happen so far with such ease it's not funny. If I move in with my mom, things won't be different. She'll be just the same. If I stay here much longer I'm going to kill someone. But shit, that's life right? No easy stuff, always a bitch, never fare.

Last night, last night was fun, hell no! It was a blast! I hung out with Jimmy and Kyle at Shera and Shannon's birthday party. Shera was upset more people didn't come, but the place was crowded, so it's probably best that they didn't. She also had to leave early, Aaron wanted to go. Who knows, maybe he didn't feel well or something. I ran into a guy named Brent, said he remembered me from Chief Joseph. I can't say that I remember him, cause I don't, but that was kinda cool anyways.

But yeah, then today I was supposed to be going out with Danielle, but something happened there, and I got the impression she was telling me she lived in Clackamas, blah blah blah... it didn't happen. Sort of annoys me alittle. I was around more than like 25 beautiful girls last night and decided not to even talk to them simply because I had a date the next day. Well I learned my lesson. Don't care.

So tonight, I'm watching Grease! Yay... *sigh* not fully what I wanted to do but I guess. Also, I might be making a web page for this local Indie artist here in Portland. But, I was hoping he'd call me today. Maybe he had a crappy day as well and decided not to. Hopefully he'll get around to talking to me by tomorrow. If I am building his site I'd like to do it sooner then a month from now.

With that said, I think I'm going to write some poetry. Before I go, I want you all to know that Jumper is a good sci-fi, Bucket list is great for all (with a mind), and I think Shela Leboff (or however you spell his name) is going to do great in the next Indiana Jones because if you look at their faces you'll see why Ford should call him son (they have the same amazed at all times look).

Thunder-dog, I'm sticking you outside because I'm mad at the world. And I'm not sorry.

Tyrant

I, Tyrant.
Terrorizer of what is good, pure, and full of light.
Plague to those who know me and doom to those who don't.
Burner of crops that feed life and destroyer of life that grows crops.

A, walnut.
Tactful servant of the walnut tree, birds, and squirrel like.
Fruit to those who would eat it and doom to those who might be allergic.
Seed to future Walnut trees and seed to it's self from it's future as a Walnut tree.

The irony.
A tyrant shadows the lands from above, below, and under the sea.
Pillaging all that there is and leaving none for the weak.
Amidst all of this the young Walnut does sleep and grow with destiny upon it.

An end.
The tyrant nears the peak of his reign, his terror, his rank.
Taking to a group of traders on route and falling hard upon them like a bird that cannot fly.
The mighty Walnut falls from it's place and hits the tyrant in the back of the head.

The strange and the weird... so much crap in my life

So I'm sick, it's certain. But ah... oh really cares? (I don't) I just took the time to fix my Vertical Blinds that have been broken since the second week I've lived here with my dad. So I'm quite proud of that, it wasn't that easy and in the end very weird.

To summarize this, I ended up using a fishing hook, sewing kit, screwdriver, and a wash rag. Now, why in the world did it need to get that complicated? All I should have needed was the sewing kit...

lol, so about 7-8 months ago we had rats in the house here. It was nasty, the house wasn't clean, and rats decided that was just what they needed. But like, no one here liked rats. So I killed all 11 of the little shits and my dad had a semi-pro kinda guy come and tell him that they were all gone and to prevent their return he needed to clean the house (badly). So for some time it was clean, but guess what. Yeah, lazy stupid people can't help it, they went back to their ways of filth and now we have rats again. I'm setting the first trap tonight but I don't think it'll stay that way, I've already heard one in the heater crawl space and I was in the room (there's like almost no barrier between the room and heater space). I had the lights on and was quietly playing Stone Temple Pilots, there was no mistaking that it wasn't safe to come out and yet I could hear the rat less then three feet from me. Oh he'll be the first to die, for sure.

Von Doom, was an awesome show. Righteous rocked again (just as they always do). Our Own Blood was to blame for the lack of moshing during Von Doom's set. That was some crazy show they put on. But it was good. I got mostly high def video of Von Doom, so it'll be about a week before that shows up. The process of editing the video and audio takes longer than just adding a video.

Hook is starting to film for his show. he hasn't yet even drawn up how he would like his page to look, but eh, all good things come in time. When he does though, I tell you, it going to be awesome. He did have an interesting idea the other night, about making a mash-up of clips from the shows. I think it would be great for a few different things. One, we could develop some shorts into banner ads. Two, we could make some clip mash-up's and add them to YouTube to promote the band.

Personally though, I think Von Doom should also find a way to sell the tracks they have already recorded. That way some money can start flowing in to support the band. Then again, I still gotta talk to Billy about the nifty idea I had to add a donate button to the band site. But enough giving out random ideas for future features and what-not.

Anyways, I'm still have some VD website work to complete tonight, so I will leave you all to your devious ways.

Thunderdog, get your tongue out of that light socket and come here!

Something orange isn’t right...

So I've been a little sick as of late. It's nothing major, just a sore throat. But it's seriously getting on my nerves.

I'm still looking for work, something better. Only thing is now I'm starting to consider the army or being a bum. This whacked out society just doesn't make sense. I applied for a job as a Janitor for crying out loud. I mean, for someone else to have been more qualified than I am for that job is really messed up. On my way into town tomorrow I'm stopping by Bi-Mart to see how that application is coming.

Speaking of tomorrow, tomorrow night is going to be awesome. Rocking blasting good time. It's sad that I will probably be in pain most of the time (not from the mosh from the cold). But I'll work past it. Probably spend more time taking photos than I want.

Oddly my mom wants to come. I mean, she's into rock, and some metal. But I'm not too sure how much she'll enjoy Metal... oh well, I'm not going to tell her she can't come.

I've now taken the time to put all of my poetry from here, my other myspace accounts, livejournal, and poetry that has not been previously posted online, all together on one site. You can find it here:
http://inico-the-poet.blogspot.com/

Well, that's all that's new with me, now I'm going to upload a couple new photos and go watch Across the Universe (good movie, if you haven't seen it you should). After that I'll probably write in Myaogu'rce Park, or maybe start chapter 4 of Samuel Time.

Love you all, goodnight.
August

Thunderdog, to the television!!!

Goodbye

A single tear crawls up my brow,
I hang here like a possum but I don't know how.

Something inches close to me,
everything is clear but I still cannot see.

I open my mouth to speak but no words come out,
they can't understand what I'm talking about.

Then she stands to walk away,
I restrain my tear this time for her sake.

As she leaves in my mind I tell her that I love her and wish her goodbye,
I know she will never understand but neither will I.

Inner Battlefield

A coin toss,
the coin lays still in mid air,
a future undecided awaits those who survive.

From across the waters the enemy shows themselves to no one,
arrows that do no real harm but sting you where they strike,
fear must be overcome if we are to last through the night.

Something amiss,
cards are blank,
what are we playing with?

The wounded and the dead return to their home,
though it's unclear how they continue to stand,
victory and defeat are ours in the fight against no one.

Looking deep,
seeking answers,
who are them?

It's like I was fighting no one,
throwing spears and casting arrows,
the battle raged on but what was I firing at?

No one knows,
no one will,
no one was there,
I fought them still.

The return of Thunderdog!

So, I've been moody as of late. Not around friends or anything, just in general. Life isn't bad, but I need certain things to happen and they just won't. I've also been reminissing on the past a lot lately. I went through and read a lot of old blogs, and I've been through tons of photos. It's making me sad, giving me hope, and making me realize not enough has changed since just a year ago.

On a few seperate notes. I was very happy (both emotionally and in the pants) to see Ashley Scott in a movie again. She's in Strange Wilderness (funny, funny movie). I seriously thought she had stopped doing film. Also, someone named Seth reads my blog. I seem to vaguely recall he was into poetry and was a friend of mine. But we never talked that much, and then I deleted him because of it. So I don't know how all of that fits into the picture.

I've been writing again. It's my crazy story. Here's the new link for it, because I had mistyped something before.
http://samuel-time.blogspot.com/

Tonight I'm watching kids. So, I should really get to doing that.
Thunderdog away!