Me, again.

So, I can't seem to stop thinking about Stephanie today. i had a dream about her last night. No it wasn't like that, that would have been a nice dream. Anyways, ever since I've been thinking about her. It sucks, and at the same time doesn't suck. I worked a long shift today, and all together I've got 43 hours already. That's alot for me. Plus there's still tomarrow befor the check period is up. HW isn't so tough right now, though my time is constrainded. That's it for me, I have to work tomarrow and sunday. TTFN

Queston (everyone must answer, with something): Would you rather lose everything that you had for a small chance at something you'll want for the rest of your life, and may never get another chance to have, or keep what you have and only risk losing what you'll want for the rest of your life?

P.S. Seriously, answer, please.

Give me your clothes!

Todays been all F'd up. I started early, recieved a headache for the day, and now tonight I'm fine again.
I got a new monitor to fix, two PS2 games to clean, I'm helping people online, and I have unknown homework.
So I won't do the homework, help those poor souls lost in the digital world, clean those games and brake a broken monitor.

Me in a nut shell, Peace Out, August

Tonight?

I won't, *yahns again*, post and you can't make me. Is anyone else feeling really tired? I got too much homework and too little time. Josy was going to go to PCC, but she dropped that idea, I don't know why. Stephs gone again, my computer class is a little hard, so is my reading class. I gotta work tomarrow at 5, gut I think I'll call in and try for an earllier time.

Recently with me,
-I like Ciaras One, Two Step.
-I got a laptop, from the goodwill, it works great though.
-I meet this girl in reading who shows no intrest in me, I think I'll give that up.
-I saw Troy, I thought it was good.
-I found out that I need to clean my room.

That girl continued.

The hell with waiting. OK, now that's done. My night sucked, tomarrow will be alright, a have a paper to do tonight, one tomarrow as well. Would you bevieve me if I told you I had to write two pages describing a vegtable? Yah, I thought it was weird too. lol, oh well, can't be that hard. Night, talk to you tomarrow.

She who I saw was not the she who I knew

She used to be there for me.
We used to talk alot.
When we were younger,
I liked her more then I thought.

I lied to her, and I lied to myself.
I said I didn't like her,
and that I hadn't seen her in a while.
These were the the mistakes I made,
and the ones for which I will never forgive myself.

I had seen her after which,
and I recognized her instantly.
I could have said something,
but something made me shut my mouth.

For years I had told myself it was fear,
fear that I might become someone like her.
I told myself if we could just meet again,
I'd say something to her.

But I know none of this is true,
she was my freind, and this would always be.
But my freind was gone, this was not her, this image wasn't she.

My freind was nice, she knew she was cool.
She didn't need drugs or alcohal to tell her this was true.
She had me and the gang, and no one challanged her just to be cool.
So she who I saw was not the she who I knew.

So if I saw her again,
I'd say nothing at all.
I'd just smile to myself,
and remember my freind,
the side of her,
who I saw and who I knew.