Entered the Twighlight zonez...

I haven't posted in a while. I'd say I was too busy but it'd just be a lie. The truth is I've been distracted. My work is requiring more from me, my friends are growing further from me. All the while something in the cosmos has sprenkled random things into my life.

First, the Russian girl Dariya, whom found my email by what means I have no idea still. She means to move from Russia and live in America, and wishes for me to help. I'm contumplative as to whether or not this could work. She's 25, pretty, and fairly nice. I'm broke, heartless, and kind of want to believe this could help me but can't stop thinking it'll be dissapointing in the end.

Next, Photography is taking a turn towards a cliff. I seem to be having better luck getting more decent (and even great) models, but more time is passing that I'm not doing much of anything. Though I have been developing my skills in photo editing.

Then, Billy's been kind of needy as of late. I understand he's excited about his band, but it's like he's trying too hard now. It's making him seem like some kind of stuckup ass. "Don't spoon feed me until I choke, let me take my own bite of metal."

Finally, I'm being followed... no really. That's what Blogger tells me. I have a follower. Her name is Emma, and she hails from Medford. Again, no idea how I was found. Blogger should have chose better wording though. To say I have a follower sounds suspecious, but if it said I had a reader, or a fan. Hell, best choice of words would be that I had a bearded dragon, than I'd have to click it to find out what the hell it was talking about. lol

I like me...

So I just ran into Jennifer Willis at Fred Meyer, and that was strange. Oddly enough we talked a little. It was sort of ackward though, beings how I've already been drinking alittle and haven't seen her since elementry school. But eh, it was nice to see someone I knew.

My shoot with Lela on Sunday was alright, slash bleh. She didn't really know what she wanted, at all. I haven't really even looked at the pictures that much, or the day before, or many pictures at all lately. I've been photographing so much I haven't had time.

Tomorrow ot to be interesting though, when I'm photographing models for a new promotional agency David is starting up (with the help of a lady by the name of JP). I talked to JP about getting me involved more by finding jobs both the models and I could do, thus I could get paid and get some good experience.

Today I was supposed to be photographing my Cousin Ellie, but she couldn't do it today so now I'm home just chillin. Yay.

In amongst all these plans to photograph more I'm supposed to be getting more hours at work. That's both good and bad. I need more hours, but I need more free time. *sigh*

Listening to random music...

So I’ve been shooting and working a lot. The Image archive page is still very much under construction, though it is making large improvements. My galleries haven’t been updated because I’m working on a new design for them in which small thumbnails of images will be displayed on the right hand side of the page and the current selected image will be displayed in full scaled to fit the center portion of the page. I should have that up and working by the end of next weekend.

My shoot with Selenny went well and we got a lot of cool images on the waterfront. The shoot with Lela not so much. She got stuck working at the Modeling School and didn’t really want to shoot there. But we’ve rescheduled that shoot for this Sunday.

Thus far there isn’t going to be a fashion show this month at L’Eschelon. David wants to do one, I can tell, but doesn’t know if he can afford it. I’m not sure how it costs him money to do the show, in fact I’m fairly certain it doesn’t (I think he makes money on the seating…). So I’m going to assume that’s his way of saying his students aren’t paying so he’s not sure if he feels like it’s a good idea.

I know what I meant, I just haven't said it yet...

Yesterday, was great! After work I went over to Billy's with Hook and we all listened to Von Doom practice. Their new songs are mind melting and the T-shirt's are surperb. Then we all went to see Tropic Thunder at the theater. I was sad that Tasha, Dana, and Kerry didn't make it. Carey joined us though... and all and all it was a kick ass movie!

Sarah, the model whom I thought would be great to do a shoot with informed me that she'd have to cancel because her husband thought it was a bad idea to meet with a "random" photographer. I suppose he's got a point. So I told her about L'Eschelon and Model Mayhem. I wish her good luck, and hopefully in the future we might somehow meet in a less "random" way.

My website needs improvements. I need to continue to develope my Galeries page, my Archive's page, and my Links page. I also need to take the time to fix a few things out of place on the Von Doom web page.

No Alex, but Christana...

So today I was supposed to do a shoot with Alex. But she didn't like the idea of shooting in the rain, I could tell right away when she text me something didn't feel like a day to shoot for her, and that's okay. So I hopped on Model Mayhem and Craigslist and posted ad's for a model to shoot today! In the rain!

Nothing happened for some time. I was beggining to feel another day of nothing was going to occur. That's when Christana texted me. In about five minutes I flew out the door, met her downtown and did a shoot. A fantastic shoot it was (she's a good model), and lots of good pictures came out of it (I should have shot in RAW).

I also gained the attention of a couple other's with my ad. One whom looks to be a great model and another whom I'm not too sure. But none the less I've got more model's to work with now, which is quite nice.

On a technical note my rainproof bag for my camera worked great to keep the rain out but humidity still flowed into the bag. I think in future shoots in the rain I should remove the camera from the bag before and after the rain shoot.

Sweet Surrender (poem)

Soft focus,
time stands still,
your eye's resting on mine

A love no one else knows,
couldn't get it from a pill,
sweet soft skin touches me

Kisses must follow,
because I lack the will,
haven't slept for days

I'd just dream of you if I did,
Dream it up just the way we are,
Couldn't wish for more

I just want to hold you in my arms.

Updates and it’s...

It's been ages since I've posted... a few at least. Today was something weird though. I've been working at camera world, blah blah, it's cool and all. I'm only supposed to be working 20 hours a week but I've been working 30-35. Now... today Kathleen quits! I mean, I'm not mad, that's her business. But now I'm working 40 hours, period. Chances are I'll be moving from the cashiering to the photolab where she was and I was being trained. That'll be nice, but geez. Oh well.

I've seen every movie that's worth seeing (the block-busters), I've partied zilch (a major bummer), and I'm getting tired of moving 24-7 practically... but again, oh well.

Girls... well where to start? There's the girl I'd love to date, she's practically a ghost right now. The girl I have a date with, I tried to date her many times, and each time has failed, so at this point I'm going to be shocked if it works out. Meanwhile there are still girls I think would look much better beside me in bed and I don't even know their names. That's the worst, because I'm single, but I feel like an ass pursuing girls while thinking about other girls.

Concerts, Righteous is coming up, I think I can see them at the RocknRoll Pizza. OneRepublic is going to be in town, and I'm requesting the time off to see them. Dragonforce is coming next month and I plan on going. Past that nothing big comes to mind. Von Doom continues onward... still behind the current yet their silhouette grows larger.

T-shirt dresses are awesome! Seeing a girl wearing one let's you know she wants to be flashy and a lady but she also wants to be accessible, I mean workable, I mean, well... she wants to be noticed in a positive and desirable way.

I need to do more model-like photography. But something more artistic than just a shoot of a person standing around. Something unique, or just crazy, you know, fantastic.

I love t-shirt dresses...

A Poem to read over again.

Plumbers butt,
the crack in an ass I find,
when I look hard enough.

Four rocks sit on a sill,
one for scratching,
one for biting,
one to kill.

Light shines between to rocks on a sill,
like the crack of an ass,
one rock smells bad,
one rock looks good,
another rock has blood on it,
but the forth rock isn't there.

Red splatter on my drapery,
the shower curtain rod in the toilet,
no more shower curtain on it.

A body lies in the tub,
the walls echo a story of pain,
a rock was involved,
one hole in the tub,
draining blood,
where a bullet went through.

A rock sits downstairs,
covered in blood that stains the carpet,
with a crack running through it.

Ichu (the poem I wrote while never)

Faded looks that don’t glance back,
passed in the hall traveling from,
places needed not have been visited,
not feeling okay.

Foil covers a more sturdy structure,
something they call art,
shines against the faded faces,
maybe they’re not art in the dark.

He told me once,
you’ll make a great this or that,
good thing I listened to him,
don’t want to know what’s worse than this.

Is my life that bad?

Don’t be a fool,
don’t act mad,
I love what I do,
though it’s nothing at that.

Spin, spin like a golden tree,
what does it mean?
If you ask me then I’d think about it,
so chill.

Arrow flies, shoots like the pain of a splinter,
things die, but not because an arrow hit them,
causes unknown, people ask too many questions,
my mind’s blown, so with that this stanza has ended.

The answer is a turtle,
yes, that’s how I will reply.
You ask what it means and I tell you a turtle,
now your heart has sunk and you don’t know why.

The end.


























I’m sorry I lied,
the end would too short if I ended it that way.
So with a proper and unrehearsed line,
I bid you farewell with nothing to do.

Updates

So, I’ve been a little busy. Working towards things, getting nothings done, chillen wit friends, and pros-crastin-atin...

So, um... where to start. Weird stuff and interesting stuff. About two weeks ago, while at the Beaverton Transit Mall, I met this really (cute) interesting chick. We talked for quite a while, but all I got was her name. That’s cause I’m an idiot.

Um, this last Monday I was coming home from chillen with Hook and Carey, first, there’s this guy with like a hundred blue lights all over his bike, and he’s riding all over the transit center and through the mall area, but not doing anything. Some clearly retarded person (they had a mental illness) started following me and was trying to talk to me about the fancy light guy on the bike. I finally ditched him by leaving the transit center. So I’m headed through the mall complex to the Shell gas station (they’ve got a bathroom and I know the chick that works there). As I’m walking some drunk guy about twenty feet away starts trying to sing to me (the song had something to do with the president and a donkey, but mostly was too muffled to understand), so I walked away but by now "I’m like what in the hell?" Who let all the crazy people out? Then I see a limo in the parking lot. Mind you, it’s about 11:15pm, not a single store here is open. Hell no I didn’t want to know what was going on with that. So I get to the Shell, and there’s like twelve people in there, and the computer is making some horrible noise. First thing out of Laura’s mouth was, "Do you have a phone I could borrow?" So I hand Laura my phone and after 35 minutes of yelling, a little tears, and a lot of user name and password prompts that all consisted entirely of the number 9, they got it working. So then I said goodbye, walked back, caught the bus and went home. But that was one weird night.

Movie reviews, first and fore most. Bloobrayne 2, don’t waste your time, energy, money, or thought. It’s given that straight to DVD movies aren’t typically good and this is one that sets bad into whole new ballpark. Doomsday, is some funny shit, and a great plot. Characters, could have been a little less routine. Effects were sort of old school, and that was cool. All and all I liked it a lot and would see it again.

VD, I need to reformat my computer so I can reinstall Avid so I can finish the videos from the 8th last month. I’m also going to redownload the videos from the 1st this month using a new program that gets the better quality off my MiniDV tapes. Then I’ll make large versions of the video.

I found out I’m better off leaving my camcorder in full screen mode, apparently instead of adding unseen video to the left and the right to make it wide screen, instead my camcorder cuts from the top and the bottom, making less picture, as well as reducing the quality.

I’ve been at it again. Playing Fallout for no reason, just killing things and getting pissed off when the guy fouls up and he shouldn’t have. I think I played a total of 8 hours yesterday. I need to stop, really... maybe next week.

Anyways, I need to finish my Taxes, do ma laundry, and work on web pages. Maybe later all write, but I don’t know if I’ll take the time. I mean, have the time, have it... I mean, Fallout.

Thunderdog, blast you stop eating that! I just printed those Tax forms...

what is happening?

First, I'll start with the stupid things. Movie reviews! The Covenant, eh, it was crap really. I mean, some decent parts and pieces, but all in all it wasn't worth much. Be Kind Rewind, the funniest part of the whole movie was when the film fucked up. It started rolling down and everything became glazed, that was awesome. Other than that, maybe a cult following of film-makers, but nothing all that great.

So August, what about a job? Well, I finally got the time to get to Best Buy and they simply said that they wanted to, but their budget just wouldn't allow it. That's understandable, it is. But why did I have to go there to find out, and why must it be that way? Beh-gah!

Dana and Hook and I were supposed to chill Sunday, but that didn't happen. I called her and told her I was on my way out the door, she said alright call me when you get to the Lloyd Center. I thought she was going to wait, she thought I was close to town and headed there. I stopped and got a new cell phone, she called me with WTF? So we made new plans. Now I have one phone to replace all other phones (god I'm starting my own phone civilization). The number you can reach me at is 5039148199. I do still have my old tracfone. I'm not sure what I want to do with that.

Well, instead of turning around and going home I continued into town and chilled with Hook, Carey, and Billy. They were all playing the new Smash Bros Brawl at Carey's house. That game is epic! It has more tricks than a barrel full of monkeys! It's crazy!

So, chilled with Dana and Hook yesterday, that was tight. We had some fun. Dana apparently needs a job more than I do. That's bad. We went and saw Be Kind Rewind. Then I decided that I should go and Dana was leaving too, so we all parted and went home. Fast forward with me now past all the other stops. Okay so there I was at the Beaverton transit center and there's this beautiful girl waiting for the same bus as me. I thought she looked kind of young but still, she was very pretty. Anyways, after waiting too long for the bus to come we all start to get on, and suddenly she's like, "you look familiar to me but I don't know where from!" Well, after babbling on about nothing for the entire bus ride I finally decided to get her name (honestly at the time I had no idea where I'd ever seen her, but I knew I had seen her before). Now, I'm sitting here, thinking about when I might see her again, and I remember where I've seen her. It was nothing really, just another chance meeting on the Max from less than a month or two ago. But yeah, now I want to see her again.

So tonight, tonight I'm going to chill with Hook, Carey, and Billy again. This time we're getting Carey drunk so someone else might win (first day on the game and his kill ratio is at +90%). Next movie I'm going to watch is Bloodrayne 2, not that it looks good, but it's rated R and I haven't seen it.

So I'm off, See ya!

Cheese is food. (blogging)

So….. I've been watching kids!! Yay!!!!!! NOT!

It's great because I won't need to pay as much rent, but it's crappy because I've been house imprisoned in a way for almost three days. The good news is however, it is over. So tomorrow I'm going to hang with Dana and Hook. Anyone else who wants to come should call me.

I've wanted to watch so many movies lately that I've decided to just start renting a movie a night from the redbox. So far all I've seen was Breach, it was eh. Tonight I'm going to watch The Covenant. I figure it's not going to be all that good. But at least I'll have seen it.

I've been playing with my new (old) camera. It's a Pentax P3, 35mm piece of old junk. But it is a good learning tool. I've been looking into getting a few different lenses for it. I took a roll of 36 test shots. Just trying to pick up how to focus, what different apertures do, how they affect the shot when changed along with the ISO speed. It's cool.

I created the coolest effect the other day while making the Von Doom pages "Fan Photos" page. It looks like a collage of photos in a snake form or something. The cool part is because it's made with HTML if you resize the width of the window (or maybe you have a small screen), then the photos just squish closer until centered as two columns.

So yeah, that's a short update on me.
August

VD, Semi-Pro, and the Chipmunks too!

Updates! So, Semi-pro... it's funny, but why doesn't Ferrel get a new personality? WTF? It's not that funny anymore. Loud jerk is so 3 months ago... But it was fun hangin with Hook all night. Carey and Billy were there too. It was all very cool, anyone who could've come should've come.

My interview with Best Buy on Wednesday went well, and I'm quite happy about that. They said to check back in about a week if I haven't heard from them yet. Which in plain English means come back in by Tuesday so we can schedule you for a second interview. I so want this job, talking tech to people all day and being in a place where it's my job to know a lot about computers would be tight!

Von Doom put on an awesome show on Saturday night. It's a shame they didn't win the battle of the bands. But I seriously wasn't expecting them to, I mean, I hoped they would, but I figured ST would crush them. Looks like I was wrong on that account. Instead ST had 0 votes, none, which was the funniest thing like in months. I could've died it was so funny. Instead, this band I'd never heard before, except on myspace, won by default. What's worse is they're apparently retarded. Their treble could have killed me (and I'm not exaggerating that), and the chicks mic was too low.

Alvin and the chipmunks... ha ha ha ha ha... I went and saw that for free yesterday. It was eh, okay. They stayed with much of the original ideas and characteristics. But it wasn't anything special.

Looking forward to VD on the 9th at the Satyricon. This time I think Billy's going to make sure everyone has their equipment tuned before they start. I plan on taking a few shoots with my new camera (Pentex P3, it's actually old). As well as getting a few videos with my new camcorder, which I must say I'm greatly pleased with the audio quality it produced. Tom, who I invited to the battle, also got some great footage of the show. He hasn't finished getting it all in finished form, but what he's produced thus far is awesome. I invited him the both the 9th show and the show on the 27th at the Hawthorne. Hopefully he can make it.

I also might be going to see Angels & Airwaves on Friday with Laura, depending on whether I'm needed to watch kids. That should be fun if it happens, if not, oh well.

Deep Ravine (poem)

Tracks left behind by an unknown beast,
I follow them like a hunter on the trail.
These tracks lead somewhere new I tell myself,
touching the earth and smelling the leaves.

Much of it's trail is easy to spot,
this creature doesn't worry about being followed.
Perhaps another beast is it's pray,
being followed just as I follow you today.

The search quickens and the trail get's hot,
the beast that I'm tracking is just up ahead.
Running with anticipation and lust,
The chase makes me crazy and puts strange things in my head.

You were all I wanted,
now I'm not sure what to do,
everything I'd ever hoped would happen,
it was always supposed to happen with you.

A monkey swings from a tree,
I'm surprised and run off the trail.
Falling into a deep ravine and losing myself completely,
My mind rebuilds it's self while I redesign me.

Who am I today?
This isn't right being so different everyday.
I gentle tear rolls down my cheek and I talk to myself like I'm crazy,
I reply to myself out loud "maybe".

Forever passes while I regain my strength,
the days are long though I remember none of them.
Strange thoughts always passing through my mind,
Separating myself from me and direct the thoughts at him.

If it's not you I'm supposed to be with,
not you I'm to spend my days and nights holding tight,
growing old with until nothing remains but sandpaper and wax,
If not you,
then who?

Blogging on Nigeria... ha ha ha ha ha!!!

Totally awesome life indeed!!!! So I went to see Hellyeah and Machine Head last night. That show was pretty awesome. I'm not so sure I have a proper appreciation for Hellyeah as much as Machine Head. Thing that was really cool was Nonpoint, whom I know songs of and never knew who played them, was there as well. In fact! I got to talk to Elias the band's vocalist. He was just standing around and people kept taking pictures with him and what not. Then I walked over and was like, "So do you do this often?" He looked at me laughing and said, "no actually I'm just waiting for my burger. I'm starving." Conversation was short (there was more) but I figured he'd rather not be THAT bothered. Then I went and snapped a pic with my cell and waved by. But it was sooooo funny, before I asked him anything, this other guy was like, "Hey are you Man?" (he apparently goes by Man as a nickname or something). Anyways, he shrugs and goes, "nah!" The dude actually bought this and turned and walked away. I laughed so hard at that. Some people man...

Anyways, to continue, so I went out and bought cloths for my interview on Wednesday. I 'm planning on making that a good interview. But what's really cool about Best Buy, is I thought I had a ten dollar gift card for them from Christmas, and when I bought something there (av power cable for my camcorder) they told me I had $66 dollars left on my card. I was like huh? Apparently it was a $100 card, not ten. That made me so happy.

Now the best for last. So this chick starts messaging me on here right. She's acting so weird and calling me baby like we've been together for years. But she's "trapped" in Nigeria and needs someone to rescue her from the Hotel... wow, how weird does that sound? Anyways, story is straight forward, no holes. Just extra pieces if you ask me. She's saying they're holding her there in a hotel because she has to pay the bills (um... wouldn't they kick you out?). I don't know Nigerian Law, maybe that's how it's done. In any case, her Myspace looks just like spam scum... and she is quick with the wit, but if she's so witty then how'd she end up in Nigeria? The conversation isn't over yet, but it's bound to get more crazy and absurd. Nigerian's and their scams, lol. So easy to see through.

Intense (poem)

I am the word telling the action,
which creates the cause of the effect.

With passing judgment I,
commit to happen what should have been.

You being of sound body and mind,
react how it is that you do effecting me,
the cause of you.

No noun knew now,
just what I should call you...

Best Buy and VD

Alright! It worked. I went into Best Buy with a resume' and they actually looked at it. I have an interview with their new general manager on Wednesday next week. I figure now I should start focusing some more time to study my A+ certification again. Though they didn't have any open positions where I applied, they said they could always hire me on as a cashier and then integrate me into the Geek Squad (whom are apparently techs that mostly diagnose problems more often then solve them)...:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

More good news you ask? Can't be! That's right, PC Magazine just released a huge article on free apps available online. Anyone who knows me knows I love those the best. Oh it is so cool...

Some bad news... found out VD videos of Von Doom covering other songs is copyright infringement. In fact, them playing the songs is a form of CI. So what to do? Well, for one those videos are gone. If you knew how and you downloaded a copy of them, I'm officially informing you that uploading the video anywhere is CI and in doing so you are at risk of being fined. The only good thing is that neither I or Von Doom can be held accountable because we didn't know, and we can always ask/pay for permission to host the videos.

Some open thought, how I am right now.

So, we all have only moments to live. The point I've found now, is to stop focusing what I believe based on love. It's not there, but it is. It's like the icing on the cake, I have to first build a foundation. How I do that? I have no idea. All I know is I need to focus on me, show myself how to live for myself before I start thinking about how to live for someone else.

Plans, well those are simply crazy and out there. I believe I could be doing better if I lived with my mother. But at the same time I'm not sure that could work. So, avoiding that question, what else to change? Should be that I study often, take more time to just do something if there isn't really time the next day. Should I help others as much? Probably not.

Study? So, I need to study computers more, but not entirely just computers. Perhaps electronics, maybe I should check into an electrician internship. I know there's a term for it but I can't think of it right now. That would give me a good pay and introduce me to electricity and calculus at the same time. Another area I need to study again, math. I haven't even really vaguely been working with math since I started at Jan's. What a joke that job has become.

Money, I need to sell a few things that I no longer use, the dead camera for one. My unused Guild Wars account would be great to rid myself of. I also need a better job, again the electrician idea would cover me. Perhaps I should see what kind of demand there is for an electrician before I just sign up though. I think I will.

Technical notes:
If a device could control atomic particles, than it could reverse them. Power could come from anything, everything moving is exerting energy, that energy can be used to power such a device, and in reversing the direction in which an object is moving in turn would create an equal exertion of energy to continue powering the device until the desired point of origin was accomplished. Finding the mathematical equations to calculate the movement of objects at the atomic level could be tricky.

Eve of pin drop, sound of the world

Life pressing, it's a Jesus hairball.
Optical illusions transforming into microphones.
The world just wants to listen to music.

Creative lions, paint in his nose.
Prey turns on one another giving the audience a real show.
Can't stand to watch this anymore, reality is just to slow.

Chicken wings, taunt them with goat.
Fly's in my soup stir it for me but eat it I won't.
The walls are sticky here so spiders don't need ropes.

Catfish.
How does that fit into the works of all of this?
Is something swimming towards or without?

I cry, very slowly a fin comes out.
Stupid cat ate my fish and spat it out.
Can't remember the name I gave it anyhow.

Yak, a heard sound distant and loud.
This is where the Devil turns cold and borrows into the ground.
No one wants to know what goes on in my head, so don't hear me out.

Times keep a rolling, all the live long day

There's hope, I know there is. But it's not with me right now. Nope. I've found every bad thing that can happen so far with such ease it's not funny. If I move in with my mom, things won't be different. She'll be just the same. If I stay here much longer I'm going to kill someone. But shit, that's life right? No easy stuff, always a bitch, never fare.

Last night, last night was fun, hell no! It was a blast! I hung out with Jimmy and Kyle at Shera and Shannon's birthday party. Shera was upset more people didn't come, but the place was crowded, so it's probably best that they didn't. She also had to leave early, Aaron wanted to go. Who knows, maybe he didn't feel well or something. I ran into a guy named Brent, said he remembered me from Chief Joseph. I can't say that I remember him, cause I don't, but that was kinda cool anyways.

But yeah, then today I was supposed to be going out with Danielle, but something happened there, and I got the impression she was telling me she lived in Clackamas, blah blah blah... it didn't happen. Sort of annoys me alittle. I was around more than like 25 beautiful girls last night and decided not to even talk to them simply because I had a date the next day. Well I learned my lesson. Don't care.

So tonight, I'm watching Grease! Yay... *sigh* not fully what I wanted to do but I guess. Also, I might be making a web page for this local Indie artist here in Portland. But, I was hoping he'd call me today. Maybe he had a crappy day as well and decided not to. Hopefully he'll get around to talking to me by tomorrow. If I am building his site I'd like to do it sooner then a month from now.

With that said, I think I'm going to write some poetry. Before I go, I want you all to know that Jumper is a good sci-fi, Bucket list is great for all (with a mind), and I think Shela Leboff (or however you spell his name) is going to do great in the next Indiana Jones because if you look at their faces you'll see why Ford should call him son (they have the same amazed at all times look).

Thunder-dog, I'm sticking you outside because I'm mad at the world. And I'm not sorry.

Tyrant

I, Tyrant.
Terrorizer of what is good, pure, and full of light.
Plague to those who know me and doom to those who don't.
Burner of crops that feed life and destroyer of life that grows crops.

A, walnut.
Tactful servant of the walnut tree, birds, and squirrel like.
Fruit to those who would eat it and doom to those who might be allergic.
Seed to future Walnut trees and seed to it's self from it's future as a Walnut tree.

The irony.
A tyrant shadows the lands from above, below, and under the sea.
Pillaging all that there is and leaving none for the weak.
Amidst all of this the young Walnut does sleep and grow with destiny upon it.

An end.
The tyrant nears the peak of his reign, his terror, his rank.
Taking to a group of traders on route and falling hard upon them like a bird that cannot fly.
The mighty Walnut falls from it's place and hits the tyrant in the back of the head.

The strange and the weird... so much crap in my life

So I'm sick, it's certain. But ah... oh really cares? (I don't) I just took the time to fix my Vertical Blinds that have been broken since the second week I've lived here with my dad. So I'm quite proud of that, it wasn't that easy and in the end very weird.

To summarize this, I ended up using a fishing hook, sewing kit, screwdriver, and a wash rag. Now, why in the world did it need to get that complicated? All I should have needed was the sewing kit...

lol, so about 7-8 months ago we had rats in the house here. It was nasty, the house wasn't clean, and rats decided that was just what they needed. But like, no one here liked rats. So I killed all 11 of the little shits and my dad had a semi-pro kinda guy come and tell him that they were all gone and to prevent their return he needed to clean the house (badly). So for some time it was clean, but guess what. Yeah, lazy stupid people can't help it, they went back to their ways of filth and now we have rats again. I'm setting the first trap tonight but I don't think it'll stay that way, I've already heard one in the heater crawl space and I was in the room (there's like almost no barrier between the room and heater space). I had the lights on and was quietly playing Stone Temple Pilots, there was no mistaking that it wasn't safe to come out and yet I could hear the rat less then three feet from me. Oh he'll be the first to die, for sure.

Von Doom, was an awesome show. Righteous rocked again (just as they always do). Our Own Blood was to blame for the lack of moshing during Von Doom's set. That was some crazy show they put on. But it was good. I got mostly high def video of Von Doom, so it'll be about a week before that shows up. The process of editing the video and audio takes longer than just adding a video.

Hook is starting to film for his show. he hasn't yet even drawn up how he would like his page to look, but eh, all good things come in time. When he does though, I tell you, it going to be awesome. He did have an interesting idea the other night, about making a mash-up of clips from the shows. I think it would be great for a few different things. One, we could develop some shorts into banner ads. Two, we could make some clip mash-up's and add them to YouTube to promote the band.

Personally though, I think Von Doom should also find a way to sell the tracks they have already recorded. That way some money can start flowing in to support the band. Then again, I still gotta talk to Billy about the nifty idea I had to add a donate button to the band site. But enough giving out random ideas for future features and what-not.

Anyways, I'm still have some VD website work to complete tonight, so I will leave you all to your devious ways.

Thunderdog, get your tongue out of that light socket and come here!

Something orange isn’t right...

So I've been a little sick as of late. It's nothing major, just a sore throat. But it's seriously getting on my nerves.

I'm still looking for work, something better. Only thing is now I'm starting to consider the army or being a bum. This whacked out society just doesn't make sense. I applied for a job as a Janitor for crying out loud. I mean, for someone else to have been more qualified than I am for that job is really messed up. On my way into town tomorrow I'm stopping by Bi-Mart to see how that application is coming.

Speaking of tomorrow, tomorrow night is going to be awesome. Rocking blasting good time. It's sad that I will probably be in pain most of the time (not from the mosh from the cold). But I'll work past it. Probably spend more time taking photos than I want.

Oddly my mom wants to come. I mean, she's into rock, and some metal. But I'm not too sure how much she'll enjoy Metal... oh well, I'm not going to tell her she can't come.

I've now taken the time to put all of my poetry from here, my other myspace accounts, livejournal, and poetry that has not been previously posted online, all together on one site. You can find it here:
http://inico-the-poet.blogspot.com/

Well, that's all that's new with me, now I'm going to upload a couple new photos and go watch Across the Universe (good movie, if you haven't seen it you should). After that I'll probably write in Myaogu'rce Park, or maybe start chapter 4 of Samuel Time.

Love you all, goodnight.
August

Thunderdog, to the television!!!

Goodbye

A single tear crawls up my brow,
I hang here like a possum but I don't know how.

Something inches close to me,
everything is clear but I still cannot see.

I open my mouth to speak but no words come out,
they can't understand what I'm talking about.

Then she stands to walk away,
I restrain my tear this time for her sake.

As she leaves in my mind I tell her that I love her and wish her goodbye,
I know she will never understand but neither will I.

Inner Battlefield

A coin toss,
the coin lays still in mid air,
a future undecided awaits those who survive.

From across the waters the enemy shows themselves to no one,
arrows that do no real harm but sting you where they strike,
fear must be overcome if we are to last through the night.

Something amiss,
cards are blank,
what are we playing with?

The wounded and the dead return to their home,
though it's unclear how they continue to stand,
victory and defeat are ours in the fight against no one.

Looking deep,
seeking answers,
who are them?

It's like I was fighting no one,
throwing spears and casting arrows,
the battle raged on but what was I firing at?

No one knows,
no one will,
no one was there,
I fought them still.

The return of Thunderdog!

So, I've been moody as of late. Not around friends or anything, just in general. Life isn't bad, but I need certain things to happen and they just won't. I've also been reminissing on the past a lot lately. I went through and read a lot of old blogs, and I've been through tons of photos. It's making me sad, giving me hope, and making me realize not enough has changed since just a year ago.

On a few seperate notes. I was very happy (both emotionally and in the pants) to see Ashley Scott in a movie again. She's in Strange Wilderness (funny, funny movie). I seriously thought she had stopped doing film. Also, someone named Seth reads my blog. I seem to vaguely recall he was into poetry and was a friend of mine. But we never talked that much, and then I deleted him because of it. So I don't know how all of that fits into the picture.

I've been writing again. It's my crazy story. Here's the new link for it, because I had mistyped something before.
http://samuel-time.blogspot.com/

Tonight I'm watching kids. So, I should really get to doing that.
Thunderdog away!

Myaogu'irce Park: Blot out the sun

Hanging high in the sky the sun beats down upon the people below. Not many birds appear to be out and none are singing their tunes. The grass is green but clearly shows signs of dehydration, they're beginning to wilt. The passersby on the sidewalks and across the street walk at an unusually slow pace, and the high-end market shopping windows are not to blame.

"This heat is almost unbearable." I announce outwardly as if someone were paying attention. Sitting on the bench I try my best not to think of the heat. Praying on what thoughts had plagued me the night before. One in particular had remained with me nearly the entire day. "I wonder if there's a way to blot out the sun." The thought would seem to be one of a large proportion. If there was a way, it would certainly involve more than a standard form filing. "Perhaps a sacrifice to a heathen god…" the thought popped into my head like popcorn under pressure from the heat of this day. "No!" I said to myself. That's not going to work. No one would volunteer for such a cause. They'd never be around to enjoy it.

"Excuse me sir," My thoughts interrupted by a voice told from above me. Looking up I saw an officer of the law standing over me, his shadow giving my heated body no rest from the sun. "You've been sitting there some time now there sir, think its best you move along." The voice came down on me with more force and less suggestion. I willed my legs to move but the heat drained all energy from me.

"I'm not hurting anything officer, just enjoying the view the park provides. I haven't seen anyone else show an interest in sitting here. I see no point in leaving unless I have to." The words were preselect and shouldn't have been said. It's well known to the people that travel this park regularly that security has no regard for human life. It's been said that they have killed people for the thrill of it. Suddenly willing my legs to move seemed a tad bit easier.

"Well much as it pleases you to do so I'm afraid you look suspicious sitting there for such a long period of time. So unless you're in the market for trouble I would recommend leaving with yourself intact." The words were piercing and cold. His body posture changed to match his aggressive tone. At once I found the strength to stand and I began to walk away.

Turning my head back I muttered to him with forced pleasantry, "Of course officer, and thank you for your recommendation." Walking away with haste my mind was slowly returning to the thought I had before and the heat when I felt an enormous amount of pain surge through my body. Like a thousand needles rampaging outward from the small of my back. I dropped to my knees. "This isn't right," I thought to myself and realized the irony of it all. I knew this was coming, I'd of had a better chance attacking the security officer than I would walking away. The sights in my eyes dimmed and then faded to black. I lost all feeling of the world. Wouldn't be long before I couldn't think, might as well let go now.