Happy, happy, this new years sucks!

Mabey it's me, but when my boss says I'm working till close, I think it's going to be late. But no, we closed at 7, not because we were slow either. I had asked him when we were closing and he said it depended on how busy we were. So I hadn't made any plans. Then I find out that we are closing at 7 no matter what, I find this out however, when we close. Because at 6:55 mc.donalds closed and our drive started going nuts. But at 7 he just shut the machine off and said we were closed. Now I'm here, at my computer, everyone's off doing something except me. And if things don't get better, I'm going to go out, anywhere. My mothers drunk and if she starts bitching me I'm leaving. Anyways, that's my night in a wrap. Peace out people.

August

Dreams of her

She'll be gone again by now,
I feel like such a fool.
I let her get away,
what else could I do?

I knew she'd be gone by now,
knew I had to tell her what I knew.
Knew she'd get away again,
knew what I had to do.

I should've told her how I felt,
I knew exactly what to say.
Should've told her then,
before it was too late.

Then she would have know how I felt,
what I always wanted to say.
But now it's too late,
because the girl that I love,
has once again, gone away.
And my dreams of her,
are no longer comforting.

Merry Christmas!

Yah!!! Merry Christmas!



O.K. Now it's done, back to life. Move it, put that red and green shit away. Don't forget where you put it! The gold and silver too, it's time to calculate your loses. lol. ;)

In the moonlight!

In your presence, I think of nothing but you.
And after we meet, all I can think of is you.
Thoughts of what was said, and what wasn't.
What you were wearing, how you did your makeup.

I thought I was over you,
thought that I might never see you again.
You'd gone away, where I didn't know.
You hadn't replied to my e-mails.
So I thought you would never know,
how much I cared about you.
The things that I felt, that I still feel.

Now I know why, but it doesn't help.
I still don't think you know how I felt.
The way that I feel, about you, about us.

It's late, and I want to meet you again.
Maybe I'll take I walk tonight,
maybe we'll meet in the moonlight.

It's almost christmas.

Suddenly awake, I realize what day it is.
I jump out of bed, Wide awake and excited.
I begin running towards the main room,
where our christmas tree sits.

I stub my foot, trip on a toy,
fall flat on my face, landing on more.
Then my eyes light up with great suprise.

The christmas tree is gone, wraping paper all over the floor.
The window is smashed out, glass all over the floor.
I begin to cry, as I lay on the floor.

Then I remember, with horror in my eyes,
What I told santa, when we went and visited him at the mall.

I told him he was fake, that christmas wasn't real.
That it was stupied and it was something I didn't really need.

Now he's taken everything, and you now what that means.
Santa Clause is real, you don't have to believe,
and if you tell him he isn't, he gets real mean.
Then he'll take back everything!

I just want my freind back.

It's been a while,
since I've seen you last.
In the end we disagreed,
I'd said you'd changed.
Maybe so,
but that was then.

I haven't seen you in a while,
wouldn't know what you looked like now.
But I'd know it was you,
and I'd smile inside.

I'd like to smile now,
but instead I'm crying.
I haven't seen you in a while,
and I don't think I'll ever see you again.

11:27 PM

By the Power vested in me.
I have a dream.
What's Montague?

This man, and this woman.
A dream that people of all colors.
Nor any other part belonging to a man.

You may now kiss the bride.
Will live in peace.
Would sound as sweet.





p.s. Don't ask me, I don't know. It sounds good though!

On this night.

It's all here,
it's been here all along.
The answers I seek,
Everything I ever wanted,
All within reach,
Right under my nose,
Placed right at my feet,
Here for the taking,
But in my grasp it fades away.
My time has not come,
for my answers to be revealed.

To my Sweetheart

Long kisses from Sunset till Dawn.
Lust transforms into Love.
She barks like a dog.
Wish I was a Toad,
and she'd give me a Kiss.
Then I could turn into her Magical Prince.
Make out from Dawn till Dust,
Yvonne is my Sweetheart,
just for Pretend.

I won't go to sleep!!!

That's right! I'm going to stay up all night. I'll clean, do HW, Workout. I don't care. I'll write poetry, it doesn't matter. I'll write again tonight after I've finished my homework. Peace.

Dana's found!!!

Yay!!! They found her, I might be able to go to school after school today (you know what I mean). Gotta go to class, I didn't have any homework. Well I got nothing else. Peace!

Yay! (p.s. that was sarcasism)

I had to work all day today, that's great for good hours. My boss has now become deranged, he thinks he heard they found Dana but they didn't (didn't stop him from taking down the signs). My pay check sucked, tomorrow I'm going to fry's, I think. If the one theory I have doesn't turn up any thing than monday or tuesday I'll go to Roosevelt to ask around. Sarah dropped her journal and has not been to class in so long that she's most likely failed no matter what. I think for my next essay I'm just going to write the whole thing, edit it myself, take it to freinds to edit and turn it in really early.

Turkey, fuck.

I think i'm going to be an ass. Turkey for a week, my freinds missing, and my mother can't even remember what happens in my life from one second to the next. No one seems to be online and everyone's trying to do christmas shopping. What the fuck, mine's almost done. So here I sit and talk to myself, lfol. O.K. I feel better now. Gotta make a call. Peace out, August.

Dana's missing!

I found out today my friend Dana is missing, if anyone reads this and knows where she is please tell me. I wouldn't tell the cops, but I am worried about her. They came by my place looking for her. No one's seen her since the 18th. That would be 7 days tomorrow.

I got my CIM. Stupid thing came in the mail today, like it's worth much. My check was for $210. Almost my lowest. Tomorrow I am going to my dads after dinner. I'll be watching my little bothers and sister. Then I have to go to work.

On the brink

Moving endlessly,
the vortex has me.
I can't die,
and I'll never get away.

Prisoner in an empty cell,
tortured by only myself.
It'll never end,
I can never escape.

Death comes for the choosen,
the choosen won't tell me how it happens.
So I wait here,
forever.

She never left

It comes from a place in the back of my head,
where the ground is chared and the sky is red.
It comes to tell me something I'll always dread,
words that no one else hears because they're in my head.

I try not to hear them,
and I try not to listen.
But they keep calling,
trying to change my decision.

Now I must tell you,
because the words have escaped.
I'm in love with a girl,
whos now gone away.

Where she has gone,
I may never know.
It is only in my dreams,
that she never left.


-----All of my journal enries will now by poems------

Another day off:

Got time off? I do. Here's some of that poetry I promised.

Everything quite,
nothing move.
Hard south breeze,
sleep in till noon.

Turn all the lights off,
let the sun go down.
Deep north breeze,
put the fire out.

Climb into bed,
find peace with yourself.
Strange wind change,
you didn't put the fire out!

I'm sorry...

To Amanda: Sorry but it won't work. I just put my last check and the highest this next check will be. It's not enough, my DSL bill went up, I had to buy another book for english, the month will be changing about then so I will need to buy a bus pass, and christmas is just around the corner. I'm not getting shit for hours anymore, it's winter and I work for DQ!! My check period is almost up and I only have 20 hours. Sorry, I'm trying to get a better job, but it's not going well.

today.

Homework, Homework, ..., make it stop!! I need to get a new keyboard. I managed to break the one shift key that I use all the time and now I keep typing 1's and /'s. I think I'll have a chance to get the Avril tickets tommarrow. Shrek 2 is good, you know, for a #2 and a kids movie. I did like the cat. Maybe I'll start putting some of my poetry on here. Well that somes up today so far, gotta work right after school so till tomarrow, see ya!!!!

Yesterday

I didn't feel like going online yesterday. I don't know why. Gotta get to english soon. I saw the Incredibles, it was a great movie. Everyone should see it. I'm really tierd right know, so I think that this will be my morning journal, and I'll come back later and accually say something. K, people! I know, it seems like no one's online these days. O.k. just lost my thoughts for the third time, later.

The video game effect!!!

I'm not kidding when I tell this story. I was on my way up to rite aid to take some 2 litter bottles back when some guy accross from the street yells "hey!" I stopped to face him and he came running over to me. He had a buckit in his hand and there were so tools of sorts in it. He began to quickly explain that he was working a job about two blocks away but that his partner didn't show and he needed help. He says without even being promted that he just needs me to pull a rope to hold a tree branch back while he cuts it and he'll pay me twenty bucks. I of course told him I had to go because I really didn't have time for any such projects. So I continued and returned the bottles. As I left rite aid though, another man shouts to me and being a semi-nice person I at least must make certain that it's no one I know. This is however, no one I know. He asks me if rite aid had taken my returns. I told him that they did. Then he asked me how much they paid for each, and I think, "What else stupied?" So I told him 5 cents, and figured he must be new to the country! Then he asked me if I had i.d. I told him that I did. He asked me if I wanted to make a $100. I then told him I wasn't interested and had to go. This whole good guy bad guy thing was just a little weird. I still don't know why that sort of thing would happen, but I think that's the last time I'm going anywhere without headphones. That way I don't have to talk to the weird-o's anymore. It felt like some sort of poke'mon adventure, only without the ceartures or nice people or hokey shit that leads you on your path. Anyways, I have HW to do. Dambed essays just keep coming!!!

Days go by.

I've been really tierd these last few days. Maybe it's the soda. My check sucks, they're missing an hour. I'm not going to say anything though. They've given me 16 extra hours befor. So this isn't too bad. It was so hot at work last night though, must have been 90. Gave me a headache that didn't go away till 1:00. It was funny though, Vicky and Irean were in the back and Vicky was fucking off not doing his job so I went back and snached his hat off his head. I told him to come work or he wouldn't get it back, he ingored me though. So I hid it from him, never would he find it. After we closed and I was waiting for the bus he came driving back screaming about his hat. I told him where it was and he went inside looking for it. I could tell by the way he was spinning that he had no clue where I hid it and then the bus came. I left laughing to myself. But anyways, got HW and video games. Thunder Dog, to the game console.

Enternal Confusion from the Lost Mind

I saw that movie, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, that is a weird movie. Very good, and well done. But weird! If you're into movies that will never let you guess what's next, this one should make you drowl. I was confused untill the last 15 min, and even then they lost me again. Tomarrow I'll work on homework and see White Chicks. I broke my controller, I've had it with that dambed anolog. It gets stuck and I think my character has stopped but he hasn't. I think I'll.. yah I have no idea what I'll do. Good night everyone. Thunder Dog, chase your tail, he's so obediant.

No work!?!

Holy shit, I just found out that I'm not working till Wednesday. This is suck ass, my hours are going to drop so much, they'll think that means they can work me all weekend. Shit! I gotta start the next lesson for computer class then. Oh well, movies and video games all day tomarrow and tonight. I now know why I get sick with some games. If you look at your finger and move it left to right, your eyes follow it perfectly, but because you're focus is on the finger it won't make you sick. If you just turn your move your eyes left and right however, they pivot, or jump. It's not a smooth movement. When you play these games however, it is smooth, you can turn your charactor 90 dregrees and the camera spins smoothly with them. But because your eyes don't accually see that way, you can get sick and dizziy. I think I'll find a way to tell gaming companies this and maybe they'll start making the games more like the human view, it would also help the game go faster graphically. Gotta go to math class, Thunder Dog, out of the toilet and to the Thunder Mobil! Yes, that means we're going for a walk and riding the bus.

Today was cool. Sort of.

Today I built a radio system with my moms boyfreind (Andrew). He and I were going to build a killer system, but his amp. sucked ass, so we went with puers like a kitten. It still kicks ass. Then I like, totally went on a shopping spree, the goodwill, junk store, movie rental )got around the world in 80 days, good, but gay, so very gay:(, then I stopped at Rite Aid to stock up on soda. Then I played Jax & Dexter till I was sick to my stomack and had a broken controller. Watched ATWI80D's which would make a great kids movie *coughs, "gay"* And now here I sit. Sarah didn't look so hot the other day (no I mean she didn't look well), and it's because she's not been well. Hopefully she'll be o.k. Work the other day sucked, though compared to Sarahs job, I didn't get my brake for three and a half hours. When I did, everything went to hell, and I was basicly closing by myself. Rejeeta was of little help. But, I do get paid by the hour, so the longer the better.
Well, it's time to turn in for the night. Maybe tomarrow I'll try this "rich text mode", I see below the box where I type my entry. To the bed; oh no Thunder Dog not the bed, how many times most I tell you? Now where will I sleep. Damb sheet hog! I'll just sleep without any covers!

Bigger than life, then the world, creation its self. Three inches tall!

I'm eating a vegie pizza! This seems like an insult to pizzas all over the world. Anyway, if my check comes to what it should, I'm going to see Avril Lavigne. With Amanda, it's offical. I wonder if Sarah likes Avril Lavigne? She seems to listen to a lot of that type of music. Ha, I wonder if she has a working computer to see this and tell me. lol. So many people these days are having trouble with spyware. Anyway (again), I'm going to start working on my wallpaper program again. I have a cool new idea for it and want to try it out. Or maybe I'll try hacking some major corporat office. jk, I can't even track down my own bills online. lol.
Thunder Dog! To th... where the hell did he? Thunder Dog, no! Leave the Squiral alone! Stop! Stupied Dog!

So like yah!

Check it out. Computer HW is easy this week, and my english teacher (winnie the pooh) didn't give me any. Ha Ha, I'll have it done befor I have to go to work today. So it turns out Sarah has a livejournal, I gave her my user name and she gave me hers. I read through most of her entries. She doesn't have really strange ones like most of my freinds, and she likes baseball. It was really cool last night, I got online and just started clicking freinds, I went up into Washington, Alaska, Canada, Texas, New York, California, Penn., Virginia, Michign, then I got stuck in the United Kingdom. I accually forgot all the states I got into, and they didn't go in that order. I think I'll try getting one freind from each state. I found this one person who had nearlly 300 freinds! Anyway, maybe tonight I'll drop another line. Later!

My day, in a nut shell!

So the other day I started trying to map out who knows who, on livejournal. I started with Josy, then went to Amanda, and as I went, I hit a stop. Both Amanda and Josy know alot of the same people. But, when I looked at the bigger picture, all I saw Erica. That's because she most know everyone. Josy and Amanda had a number of freinds that made a neat little circle, except Erica links to a number of other people, each with their own circles. And I'm sure that one or more people from each new circle knows people from more circals that would surly cover the whole world!!!! So I have a lot of work ahead of me. And HW, surprise! ha! Thunder dog, to the net!

Morning, no more night.

Still no sallie. Last night was shitty, I couldn't sleep. And now I must be to class soon. Halloween sucked, I had homework and now I have. To anyone who reads this, I tell you, don't become a full time student and part time worker at the same time. Your life will become a running around mess. Maybe I'll have time to watch my movie today. Thunder dog, to the classroom!

In the middle of the night!

So here I am, in the middle of the night. Naked in front of my computer, writing in a journal online for the world to read. Hehe, I've been downloading some 80's music lately, and I think I know what to do with it! Dance magic dance, Jump magic jump, blah blah blah, I don't know the rest of the words to this song. I'm not really naked either. But for those reading, it was a great way to begin. Maybe that's what I'll title my computer essay for english class, Naked in front of the computer, it would be funny. I have to end this soon! Gotta go pee! I found out that tickets to Avril Lavigne are expensive. $75 for two tickets, I'll have to see what my next pay check comes to. If it's like last, no way in hell unless it's a date I'm going with. Good night!

HW, oh right, it's halloween.

Happy Halloween! To any one who cares. I know I don't! That's right, and HW sucks. I just had to write a 250 word letter to someone in the middle of the night. This assignment was to be to someone you could really get emotional about. I don't wanna talk about it. My score on my math test sucked. I'm glad we can redue this one. Who the hell would except a C+? Not me! Shit, I need to find out how much tickits are for Avril lavigne. I have to get up early tomarrow, so I'm turning in for the night. Good night everyone!

Saturday, before halloween

80's music is so cool!!!! I've be downloading tons of it, then I put it on my new mp3 player (not very big).
I can't believe i'm going to have to do hw on halloween. It sucks! Sallie still hasn't responded, I saw her yesterday. I was on the bus and it passed her. That sucks. I would've had got off and ran to her (yes i meant it like that) but i was already late to work. FUCK!!! Napster sucks ass. I was thinking about getting together with eric tomarrow. Amanda, what do you think of a big get together tomarrow. I could call eric and everyone I know and you could call everyone you know, we could all meet at like the mall. Then we could go pchyco together, hangout, you know! I gotta get something to eat, if it doesn't work or if you already have plans, leave my Joe's number K. I'm giving up e-mailing her! LOL. To the freige, Thunder Dog, Away!!!

Christmas has a flaw!!!

$60 down the drain. On what, some video games, a cd, and two movies. The movies were for me, mousetrap and man of the house. Well, at least most of my shoppings done. I just hope that will it was 5 months untill my dad got me my birthday present. Maybe I'll get my christmas present early, he could have it to me by march!!! lol. I love him, but he's a flake. I got HW to do, Thunder dog!!!! To the books!

My day off, not!

No school, no work, homework and things to do. Still no responce from Sallie. Gonna go christmas shopping, I know, it's too soon. Better now then never. I changed my icon, it wasn't too hard. I need more money. I'm voting Bush!

The middle of the night, sorta.

Collage sucks, works sucks, and I ain't got nothing to do but homework tomarrow. I hope Sallie e-mails me back. I e-mailed her asking if she liked Avril lavigne. If she does, and is single, I'm going to ask her out. To a Avril Lavigne concert. It's Nov 27 at the rosegarden. My paycheck sucks, $219.44. I noticed that you can follow freinds lists and end up finding people from europe and elsewhere. Anyways, gotta go. Lots of work makes me tired, off to bed I go

Great Day, Not!

I got my camera! It's a 5 megapixil 10x zoom, mega camera. But now I have to think about what to get everyone for christmas, and Stephanie is leaving on thursday. Why is it that life always has to fuck things up? I feel as though I should tell her how I feel about her, but it's pointless. Even if suddenly she decided that she liked me, shes still going to be gone. Joe never responds to my journals, hell, most of the time she won't respond to my e-mails. I understand why Steph takes two weeks, she doesn't have internet (or time). I wonder if anyone else has me as a freind. I can check that, I was able to see what Amanda wrote, gurlnextdoor, and even that her birthday is next month. I'll check, I wounder who Briti is? Or Erica? I'll these people Joe must have met through PIVOT. I wonder if the're cute. Oh shit!!! I never uploaded a picture. O.K. This lournal is over, to the labs thunderdog!!!!

my life. As it is, ....?/<>?

The other day some laddie ran over my sack. I was outside pcc and kicked it too far, into the street it went and she stopped her tire right on it. She skid and little balls went everywhere, the sack was totaled.

Man seeking sack, will pay for good one. Preferred dirty and worn out. LOL

I read Joe's journals, I never knew she was wierd. Of course I knew she was hot, lol, but damb!!!

Anyways, I'm single and spending too much money. Way too much. Collage is fun and work sucks.

Everybody love me, TTYL August