Sense and Anger (Practiced run-on, 420 words)

There's a time for restraint and a time to make a move that could invariably lead to conversation but may instead take all that I have left and that would in fact leave me in the position you now see me in laying here in as you walk by staring as though I were a deformed monstrosity placed here only to serve as a reminder that there are those who do in fact have it worse than you when in fact the truth is that I am far more wealthy in life for it is I who have found love and not the one looking with such distain and disgust as if your place is so much higher than mine just because you have the money because you work the good job that gives you the good job only to find you're not happy while I am or so it seems from where you stand because you are not aware of my pain nor are you aware of my unhappiness because in truth it is you who lives with the girl that I love and you who breaths the air she breaths and kisses her goodnight with your fake romance burying your true love deep inside for you feel for another but kiss her while I stay true laying shaking and starving in the mud leaning here against this pole just waiting for the day the truth comes out and your time with her is over so that then I may move forward and if she will have me than my happiness finally may come and a new day will dawn though I can not see that happening it is nice to dream of things that others might not find so hard to accomplish while for me it is so clearly out of reach and knowing that I reside not to even contemplate the idea any further while on that note perhaps there's an answer in this world after all for you see if I could only find a person who's special quality is to set things in motion that might change my circumstances then indeed I would have a chance to be happy and make her happy as well but then of course I would need to find someone who may not exist so it might be that in order to accomplish this task I'd need to create a second personality to train my personality to create my own chance as if that makes any sense at all.